Post 89. Chinese New year!

After watching Jet Li's fearless yesterday. I was set thinking on my way home.

In the movie, Jet Li wanted to be TianJin's No. 1 in martial arts. (Warning lor. Spoiler LOr. Don't blame me if you haven't watched the show. YOUR WOLS!) He wanted to regain his family's honor, and his make his Huo Jia Quan famous. In his conquest of No.1, he killed Master Chin, his last opponent before he is No.1. Master Chin's stepson wanted revenge, and killed Huo Yuan Jia's (Jet li) mother and daughter. YuanJia wanted to fight Master Chin also to seek revenge over his beating up of one of his students. But, the student was punished because he insulted ( In chinese terms means not verbally, but you know something like molesting or wadeva lah) Master Chin's wife. YuanJia fought for the wrong reason, and his family is killed in the process.

He wandered around, living in the painful memory of the death of his mother and daugther. (Not before killing the stepson of course). And blah blah blah, cut the story short, he learnt that fighting isnt for being No.1. Wushu should be to strengthed one's mind, body and soul (?). A fight should be a ground to learn to defeat one's greatest enemy, which is oneself. And I dont quite remeber much, but I think the show was very meaningful.

And for this new year, I reckon I need a new beginning to begain with. I have always wanted to take part in photographic competitions, to be the No.1 young photographer out there.

I guess I was wrong. A competition is a ground to gather all the talented photographers to showcase his works. Its not about competiting, but to see the other wonderful photos out there. Even if I win every competition there is, its meaningless. To improve my photography, I shall setup a website, my personal website, and a short column where people can send in their photos and I can help them improve their picture! (To the best I can). I have this skill, and I should help everyone else improve theirs. Its all about sharing.

One's biggest enemy is oneself, and to improve my pics as well I shall review them with thought. Not just happy snapping anymore, and lamenting why people won. The path to self discovery!

Too much vengence. Too much hate. I guess my aim for this new year, is to make more friends, more happy faces, and less enemies! And less vulgarities to go with the main dish. Always fuck here fuck there also not good right. But seriously I wonder how long can I not mention fuck, considering I am going into the army soon. But nevermind, I shall make the most of it while it last!



Happy new year to all my friends, close or far. I shall be a good boy (men?) this year! Yeah!

Blur as that hogdog

Just a short update, with a forecast of this year's event for me!

I've been trying out, 5times a week, to get myself ready for the dreaded napfa test. My chest muscles are aching and they arnt airport anymore!!! ::upzz::

I'm graduating soon, in 1mnths time.. And for the first time in my life, I know what direction I am heading and what to do. A full time photographer!!!! Perhaps I'm heading to TP to study visual com, major in photography.. Hmm.

now for the yearly forecast.

It is expected to be a lonely season ahead. Its going to be all stormy on valentine's day, children's day, youth's day.

Expect heavy showers on later months like december and august. Thats when the festive season starts..again, and the auspicious 03-08-2006. I'm going to spend it in camp, and perhaps its going to be 0% decline in presents as well! ( F.Y.I, last year was Z.e.r.o. )

We might occasional sunny days, such as vesak day, labour day, national day, where I can go out and do some photography.

Overall outlook for 2006, heavy showers and thunderstorms. Remember to bring an umbrella out to shield from the affections for everyone else around, and raincoat is recommended to provide a sense of mystery and solo aura (wtf is that??!)

OK tts all for now.

Weatherboy out.

Never good enough.

Never good enough.

Never tall enough
Never handsome enough
Never fast enough
Never smart enough
Never intellectual enough
Never nice enough
Never polite enough
Never pleasant enough
Never considerate enough
Never mature enough
Never fit enough
Never rich enough
Never cool enough
Never funny enough
Never romantic enough

Never good enough in photography, in sports, in studies, in exams, in relationships, in everything.

There is always a mountain higher. I never really tried overcoming one, ah heck wtf I wouldnt give a damn. Perhaps for me, why would I wan to climb that mountain. Maybe at the top, you would have seen someone's flag stuck there, and at the far end there are tons of mountains. Higher.

It has always been me. I laugh it all away.

I, am never good enough for myself, for anyone, for this world.