Life is random, life is chaotic. At least my life is. Its in a mess.
Just got attached to a air cooling company in tuas for my itp during the hols. What the hell man. Aero student here hello. Somehow all the gd students are going to all the funny non aero companies. Not that i'm a gd student but alot of my frends are.
How I wish I can do the things I like. Like dropping out of school to be a photographer. Be a commando. When u quit poly u get a PHD = poly halfway dropout. I'll try to pass my exams this sem. otherwise I'm quiting school. There's nothing for me to hold on in poly.
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Came back to edit this post. Just feeling so down.
Thursday, March 31, 2005
Tuesday, March 29, 2005
Pro-e
Didnt had time to blog yesterday n last sunday. Really interesting saturday was. Ns frends meet up and we went to billybombers. Cute waitress we saw.
"Anyone ordered sirloin steak?"
"Yup overthere" (Pointing to my frend beside me)
"Erm think dun think anyone ordered..We ordered tenderloin steak" (Exclaimed)
"Ops *haha* this tenderloin steak" (Smiling away...)
Omg kawaii neh! But didnt get to ask her number due to my indecisiveness. Am going back this sat with weichao. Still have to treat him nia if not is 1 man show.
Am now in T1455 practicing for pro-e test tml. Just failed the previous test, so i have to pass this one.
Working to the tune of wu yue tian, listening to my classmates crappy quotes ( suddenly he blurted out " The ring must be destroyed by nightfall." -_-), and lovely dovey couples hugging @ the corner. Prime environment to do practise my exam.
"Anyone ordered sirloin steak?"
"Yup overthere" (Pointing to my frend beside me)
"Erm think dun think anyone ordered..We ordered tenderloin steak" (Exclaimed)
"Ops *haha* this tenderloin steak" (Smiling away...)
Omg kawaii neh! But didnt get to ask her number due to my indecisiveness. Am going back this sat with weichao. Still have to treat him nia if not is 1 man show.
Am now in T1455 practicing for pro-e test tml. Just failed the previous test, so i have to pass this one.
Working to the tune of wu yue tian, listening to my classmates crappy quotes ( suddenly he blurted out " The ring must be destroyed by nightfall." -_-), and lovely dovey couples hugging @ the corner. Prime environment to do practise my exam.
Friday, March 25, 2005
Girls n Friends.
My thoughts seem to be wondering around these days. Cant determine when it all started, but maybe all I could gather is it happened after something traumatic happened. Anywayz was thinking about this two things of late.
How would you describe a female? It just occured to me blurting out the infamous words "chiobu!" isnt that nice. From my point of view it completely degrades oneself to that of a street tug, and disrespects the opposite sex. So here on and, I've decided to find new vocabs. So the question is, how would you describe a pretty lady of the street (or even a friend)?
Confident - very sexy adj.
Sensual - abit doubtful over this. My english is poor, so cant decipher the explaination on dictionary.com.
Sexy - Common, but do you dare to say it?
Cute - common, again.
Beautiful - hmz
Out going - Idea given from a friend
Extrovert - "
Bubbly - new word!
Thats all for today. I'll revert to this topic some other day.
Next on my mind. Friends. I thought for this for a long time. Friends, best friends, close friends. What kind of friends do you have? You friends most probably reflect who you are. For me, as determined on friendster, I have 106 friends. In Msn, I have 109 friends. But in real life, I have
Close friends = none, Best friends = none. This probably reflect on how a person I am.
For those who have close or good friends, your lucky. When issit you can ask them out just to have some clean fun, have a heart to heart chat, trust them with your secrets, confide to them when you have a problem? They will probably stand by you when you need them most. Do I have such friends? Sad to say I have none close friends who know anything bout me, say the least. Rarely I have friends who msg me how are you, lets hang out to catch up on each other. I cant blame them though, cos the problem lies with me I guess. Even when you msg them they dun even bother to get back to you.
Probably this is so thats why I seek to get attacted. This is wrong, yes I know. Take a look at the horoscopes, they always say Leo's are loyal friends, who value friendship. Well that is probably true, but do they put it cos Leo's need more friends? I guess I'm the only Leo that I know that is so problematic.
Lastly, sex sells. As much as I want to put the curious side of me in this blog, I'm scared it will scare away much of the readers that are my friends. So I guess sex sells to those who dont really know you or are into as you are.
Haix.
How would you describe a female? It just occured to me blurting out the infamous words "chiobu!" isnt that nice. From my point of view it completely degrades oneself to that of a street tug, and disrespects the opposite sex. So here on and, I've decided to find new vocabs. So the question is, how would you describe a pretty lady of the street (or even a friend)?
Confident - very sexy adj.
Sensual - abit doubtful over this. My english is poor, so cant decipher the explaination on dictionary.com.
Sexy - Common, but do you dare to say it?
Cute - common, again.
Beautiful - hmz
Out going - Idea given from a friend
Extrovert - "
Bubbly - new word!
Thats all for today. I'll revert to this topic some other day.
Next on my mind. Friends. I thought for this for a long time. Friends, best friends, close friends. What kind of friends do you have? You friends most probably reflect who you are. For me, as determined on friendster, I have 106 friends. In Msn, I have 109 friends. But in real life, I have
Close friends = none, Best friends = none. This probably reflect on how a person I am.
For those who have close or good friends, your lucky. When issit you can ask them out just to have some clean fun, have a heart to heart chat, trust them with your secrets, confide to them when you have a problem? They will probably stand by you when you need them most. Do I have such friends? Sad to say I have none close friends who know anything bout me, say the least. Rarely I have friends who msg me how are you, lets hang out to catch up on each other. I cant blame them though, cos the problem lies with me I guess. Even when you msg them they dun even bother to get back to you.
Probably this is so thats why I seek to get attacted. This is wrong, yes I know. Take a look at the horoscopes, they always say Leo's are loyal friends, who value friendship. Well that is probably true, but do they put it cos Leo's need more friends? I guess I'm the only Leo that I know that is so problematic.
Lastly, sex sells. As much as I want to put the curious side of me in this blog, I'm scared it will scare away much of the readers that are my friends. So I guess sex sells to those who dont really know you or are into as you are.
Haix.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Home
Another summer day
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel aloneOh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go homeLet me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home
Michael Buble.
Is come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm
Maybe surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh I miss you, you know
And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that
Another aerorplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home
Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home
And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
But this was not your dream
But you always believe in me
Another winter day has come
And gone away
And even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home
And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel aloneOh, let go home
Oh, I miss you, you know
Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go homeLet me go home
It will all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home
Michael Buble.
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
New blog?
I'm slacking at home again.
Was rather an uneventful day. Starting gaming when I woke, wanted to complete it and proceed to school. But it didnt went smooth, so I went to friendster to take a look. Curiousity took over me, and I decided to make a search on friendster, on SEX. There came a few dozen of accounts, 108 to be exactly. So I went through them, clicking on those I deem will be interesting. 1, 2, 3, until I came upon an account which had my curiousity.
When surfing friendster, I find lots of lady's like to have sex mentioned, but will rather do it with a fellow gender? This amazes me man. They are single, around 20+, and are all good looking. But anywayz so there is this lady, which is 20, calls herself goddess. As any other guy would, they would proceed to view the pictures. Woho. I think most people would be expecting pretty faces or even revealing pics, but boy there where none, but teasing pictures, showing just parts and pieces. Oh my, this is interesting indeed.
There laid in About me was her blog. Hmz, simple layout though. What matters is the content, and wow can I say it kinda shocked me. Detailed in it are her sex life, with ex, an aussie guy, her best friends bro?!, and of course lesbians. I read all the post, which I was looking for sexual content at first. But after that I was thinking hard and seriously.
I'm only 18 now, and damn curious bout sex. There is this world outside that completely defy the chinese culture. Out there are horny, hungry for sex ladies, who make making love, or should I say sex, look like everyday's coffee and tea. Of course I wish I was that eligible and can just walk up to any girl.
Boy, am I still childish and naive. I'm still holding on to my first relationship, thinking bout her everyday. But issit the yearning for sex or issit for her company, for her warmth and care. Right now its the latter that I would want so badly. But I guess its the complacency that I have back then. I just miss her thats all.
This is an extract from her blog, nope not my ex but the goddess.
"Not that I'm lonely. Being attached and single have their very own pros. And people shouldn't juxtapose them in comparison. It isn't fair. It's like judging two guys on their looks when one's Black and the other's Yellow. It doesn't make sense because the only constant is You, which in my case, isn't consistent at all.
Both sides of the coin provide you with different things. Singlehood means you get the freedom to fuck. Being attached means you get to fuck your freedom, I'm sorry I meant, fuck with commitment. Both are extremely fulfilling, trust me. And maintaining both lifestyles is equally tedious.
When I'm attached, I can afford to paint my nails once a week. When I'm single, I have to polish them before every date. Not that it's imperative for the guy but it's just this ritual I perform to make myself feel prepped. I can eat chocolates because I don't need to fear breakouts. I can go for buffets with my date because he isn't going to gawk at the plates of Sashimi I can devour. Things like that. A greater sense of acceptance and such.
Being single can be rewarding in a sense that I don't have to tie my emotions to another person's moods with a string called love. I don't have to worry about another person and how he's feeling and whether he's alright when he goes missing for a while."
How true. This is defintely one blog I'll take note off. Meanwhile, I'm back.
Was rather an uneventful day. Starting gaming when I woke, wanted to complete it and proceed to school. But it didnt went smooth, so I went to friendster to take a look. Curiousity took over me, and I decided to make a search on friendster, on SEX. There came a few dozen of accounts, 108 to be exactly. So I went through them, clicking on those I deem will be interesting. 1, 2, 3, until I came upon an account which had my curiousity.
When surfing friendster, I find lots of lady's like to have sex mentioned, but will rather do it with a fellow gender? This amazes me man. They are single, around 20+, and are all good looking. But anywayz so there is this lady, which is 20, calls herself goddess. As any other guy would, they would proceed to view the pictures. Woho. I think most people would be expecting pretty faces or even revealing pics, but boy there where none, but teasing pictures, showing just parts and pieces. Oh my, this is interesting indeed.
There laid in About me was her blog. Hmz, simple layout though. What matters is the content, and wow can I say it kinda shocked me. Detailed in it are her sex life, with ex, an aussie guy, her best friends bro?!, and of course lesbians. I read all the post, which I was looking for sexual content at first. But after that I was thinking hard and seriously.
I'm only 18 now, and damn curious bout sex. There is this world outside that completely defy the chinese culture. Out there are horny, hungry for sex ladies, who make making love, or should I say sex, look like everyday's coffee and tea. Of course I wish I was that eligible and can just walk up to any girl.
Boy, am I still childish and naive. I'm still holding on to my first relationship, thinking bout her everyday. But issit the yearning for sex or issit for her company, for her warmth and care. Right now its the latter that I would want so badly. But I guess its the complacency that I have back then. I just miss her thats all.
This is an extract from her blog, nope not my ex but the goddess.
"Not that I'm lonely. Being attached and single have their very own pros. And people shouldn't juxtapose them in comparison. It isn't fair. It's like judging two guys on their looks when one's Black and the other's Yellow. It doesn't make sense because the only constant is You, which in my case, isn't consistent at all.
Both sides of the coin provide you with different things. Singlehood means you get the freedom to fuck. Being attached means you get to fuck your freedom, I'm sorry I meant, fuck with commitment. Both are extremely fulfilling, trust me. And maintaining both lifestyles is equally tedious.
When I'm attached, I can afford to paint my nails once a week. When I'm single, I have to polish them before every date. Not that it's imperative for the guy but it's just this ritual I perform to make myself feel prepped. I can eat chocolates because I don't need to fear breakouts. I can go for buffets with my date because he isn't going to gawk at the plates of Sashimi I can devour. Things like that. A greater sense of acceptance and such.
Being single can be rewarding in a sense that I don't have to tie my emotions to another person's moods with a string called love. I don't have to worry about another person and how he's feeling and whether he's alright when he goes missing for a while."
How true. This is defintely one blog I'll take note off. Meanwhile, I'm back.
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