Happy New year lah.

"You know, there is more to life then gaming. There is still so much of the real world to see. It was a frightening moment for me when my friend marcus uttered those words before one of our nightly gaming sessions.

Time screeched to a halt, like someone pressing the pause button in the middle of a Warcraft III battle. Marcus was a gaming lord among my friends, a man who once decleared that he would happily reject sex with a supermodel for a chance to win the World Cyber Games.

He loved games filled ninjas. His stage of enlightenment was such that mundane urges like defecation have been overcome, allowing him countless hours in front of a computer "killing: others like him.

Why give that up for the real world - a unfathomale place filled with mysterious things like fashion and hygiene? It doesnt have save and reload buttons or even respawn points after getting killed.

Instead, it has concepts that have existed in the mists of prehistoric cyber-universe, back when Bill Gates was merely a multi-millionaire. But, alas, one by one, I've seen my friends fall lemming-like to girlfriends and marketing jobs, lost to us forever.

And-I fear-I too am lost.

Growing up is one of those ugly things any right-thinking person should do their best to avoid. But it creeps on you. Like gollum. I remember a time when all I needed to feel divine was to walk out of Serene Centre with my ugly beige schoolboy shorts bulging with $20 worth of Magic: The Gathering cards.

Now, not even the Xbox 360 could give me geekdom nirvana, if only because I just have to think how many hours I have to slog at work before I can afford such things. Then there is the whole girlfriend issue. When I was but a little geek, girls were incomprehensible entitles that stimulated an equally unfathomable and unreasonable desire to acquire one.

Like the Holy Grail, the quest involved various seemingly insurmountable difficulties, such as my colossal lack of height and a vocabulary that included only football terms and Conan The Barbarian small talk. One would think the emergence of geek chic would ease one's dating troubles, but all it did was prove that cool people can do geek better then geeks themselves.

Yes, somehow, I found a girlfriend, along with a job and responsiblity (which should bring hope to everyone). And like anyone who has ever chanced upon the fabled chalice, everything changed. Gaming sessions have become sparse as the clique find themselves spending our nights taming our better halves, working in the office or recovering from just plain tiredness.

No longer are my conversations dominated by topics like magical gaming gear (also known as The Swords Of Female Repulsion). Instead, talk is about housing loans, future children, mother-in-laws and income tax. And if you think computer games bad, do you know how difficult it is to explain why one would want to arrange a pen-and-paper-role-playing session to a girlfriend?

It's not possible to explain to the average woman why a group of grown-up men can sit around a table and pretend to be elves and dwarves and fight monsters for imaginary loot without looking like a total dork.

Sadly, it is impossible to fight time.

As boyhood fades, so must friendship built on nights spent trying to get the Warcraft II multiplayer to work on a 28.8kb modem.

Reality is a bad place for a geek to be cast adrift in."


This post is a long one. And clearly it wasnt written by me.
1. I'm not attached
2. I'm not working
3. I'm language-ly challenged

The reason why I typed it out because I can relate it happening to me soon, about the growing up part and not the girlfriend part. Its a nice article in the newpaper, and I want to share it with you guys. Somehow, it takes a gamer to understand how a fellow gamer feels, esp now my computer has been wrecked.

I'm spending my new year in malaysia. And I hate it. Somehow when I spend new years in a foreign land, away from my motherland and friends, I dont remember to make new year wishes or resolutions. And that year usually get bads. Imagine all the happy new year sms-es at midnight, now turned to the tv in front of me, surrounded by little cousins too young to realise the importance of new year celebrations, watching crappy malaysian channels in the hot living room. Then its of to bed. No MSNs, no SMSes, no CALLS, no happy new year.

God damn it i really hate it when we have to go over to that country for relative visits. There's really nothing in the god damn boring days to do but just stare into the laptop hopping for it to be somehow connected to cyberspace. You can imagine its worst even before a laptop was bought. At least my sister has some friends there. I have NONE. My fellow same age cousins are already working and too old to play those hide and seek and running around and get scolded shit.

Even if I wanted to walk around taking pictures, its much too dangerous to just walk around alone, and even a mode of transportation isnt available except small bicycles intended for primary school kids and worn out bicycle left by my late grandma with punctured tyres and top speed of 2m per minute. I cant even ride the motorcycles yah, 1. no license, 2. my parents think I'm not compitent enough to handle one.

I really hate it going there at the dead end of the year. But I try to hide the dissapointment in my eyes, as I know my dad would be sad not being able to go back to his hometown to visit his brother and sisters.

Haix. Happy New Year my friends. I'm going to have a sucky year ahead.

P.S My previous post poll is still on. Leave a comment!

Blah - ahha - haha

I have to resort to my sis's laptop now.. Arg.

In advance, happy new year, hari raya haji, chinese new year, good friday, labour day, vesak day, national day, your bdae, hari raya pussa, christmas day, hari raya haji (again?!)...

I walked 12clicks yesterday! What a achievement! From 0830 at macritchie reservoir, all the way to HSBC treetop (I wont recommend anyone trying), then lunch then to bukit timah hill 1800++. AND in addition to the day before I went to bukit timah hill too. Now I can imagine the 72click road march. Woohoo.

If your reading this thanks to you for making it possible! Thankyou very much haha..the golf course was really fun!

Now....a poll for all of my dear friends! (dun worry if u dun know if u are one, cos if your reading this your already automatically drafted into the gd friends list. Mind you the list isnt very long you know so be glad! =D)

Do you think I should use my 2 payouts ( around $600+) to
1. Buy a gift for a friend (whois desperately in need of it, and yes it cost $600+)
2. Go for 2 objectif courses (www.objectifs.com.sg if you dont know. Its the photojournalism and shooting home courses. Its my dream to get in to shooting home!!)
3. Go a short travel before enlistment.
4. Or buy a PSP!!!!! ( I just saw a brand new white psp package with 1GB stick for just $499!! sure come in handy in NS LOR!!! Shit man....so gian... =O)

What say you my dear friends!!

Happy Christmas!!

This the season to be lonely,

Lala la la la. La La La La.


Its the festive season again! And the year is going to end on a sour note.. How sad. Let me explain...

-Somehow, the year started on a horrible bang. I was single again! What dang it was.
-Then it was new year, 2005, and I wasnt invited to any party or mahjong or stay overs. (not that I have been usually, but I can remember I was invited to one Last year)
-Then it was chinese new year, and it was record low in the stock markets! I recieved the lowest ever red packets. (not that i'm money face, but somehow it all pieces together to a year of shit)
-Then it was a boring year, I cant seem to recount on anything gd happening to me somehow. My attempt at meeting old friends resulted in meeting only 1, and I got to be a clown for her and her friend!
-I remember for my 19th birthday, I dont recount any presents or party for me. Not even any of my friends even ask me out to celebrate! And I thought bdae was a big deal. Bull-shit.
-And now, for this christmas, No party or anything! OK I was invited to one, but I dont really think it counts because I had to rush there after work, and reaching there almost when they where about to go home isnt the best party. And somehow, going into a living room full of alcohol smell isnt really a turn on. And I also dont really count a party with a 6 guys with a girl. Even LOTR on tv was a much need turn on for me.

I can sense some of you saying what a moron I am. Complaining about not invited to a party and when invited to one, still can critise it. Well, after my explaining above, if you all still can enjoy if u where in my shoes, then jolly gd for u.

-And I doubt there's going to be any new year plan for me as well.
-And as if things couldnt get worst, my graphic card just fizzled out on me, and I cant play my warcraft 3 with crashing my computer!!! Geez fuck.
-And it really turn holy shit when I wanted to install a game via cd, my DVD-CD driver gave up on me as well! Cant even detect the drive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It isnt a happy holiday season for nothing! Judging by how things are going, I wouldnt count on a great next year. Going into NS? I'm giving up hope on everything else.

Life's a bitch when you hope for the best. zZz.

Merry christmas you filty animal. And a happy new year. (From home alone)

Omg LOW IQ

OK. Perhaps 1 main reason why I havnt recieved an army letter is because...


You guessed it. Low IQ. And I thought someone said (alot of people said) Commandoes all braws no brains.

Perhaps another reason is my high myopia degree. But only 350 both nia. Bo ko leng leh.

zzzz. My friends all commando or officer. Its hard to expect myself to be a INFANTRY MAN.

zzzz. I CANT BELIEVE IT!

I'm not going to spend my 2 years doing shit vocation.

Where's the honor and glory days!!!

The Boy(me) Just Dont Get it

No matter how hard I try, there are just somethings I cant get.

So many of my friends got chosen for commandos interview seh. And some of them isnt even interested. It just seems that the harder I try ( and say) I wan to get into the commandos, someone up there (or down) just wldnt let me. zZz?

And why everyone says commandos are a bunch of brawns and no brains? Its like so shit lor for **** sake. No other unit trains as hard (or harder) then them, and isnt on the first on the fronts lines. And all these cant even get some decent respect? zzz/.

Short update, was working at expo, and I also cant seem to understand why City Harvest (wo0t holy) can attract so much happy goers. And some how, after my some what casual observation, they all seem to have the same aura around them. Its kinda scary. To me, of course, they some how dress alike (same dress sense), and they walk alike, have the errie stare in their eyes, they have the baggy eyes, pale skin. Young and sucked of their essence.

Zombies?

I mean this just my personal stand point, and I still respect them as a religion, but perhaps my somehow limited knowledge of their operations (saying this to protect myself in any case,) cannot really truly judge them.


But seeing 30 thousand of them in 3 sessions is really a sight to behold.

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1. kill

2. Be rich

3. I hate $$$

d-s-a-e-w-q

if only everything like the above is so simple.

Sometimes, things seem so near, but actually its so far. You dream for the best for yourself, however, it was never meant to be.

Time and time again I've wished not to fall into this trap. I am too weak.


Pes A for medical.

"Do your peers think National Service is a waste of time?" - Strongly agree
"Do you think National Service is a waste of time?" - Strongly disagree

I'm wishing for the commando's letter to arrive.
Perhaps in my 2yrs, I can find honour and glory to occupy my heart. To make it stronger.

Rather then love.

Love?

Coming to recall, I have not met anyone who hasnt had the same relationship till now, since the beginning when I know that person.

Weichao, on off 2 yrs, now single.
Yaomin, on off for as long as I know him, currently unknown.
Ck, 2yrs, now single.
Junren, 2yrs +, now single.
Sam, 2yrs +, now attached with another person.
Daniel, 2yrs ?, heard on the verge of singlehood.
Pangchune, 1yr, single.
My cousin, ???, attached but I knw he changed 3 times.
My female cousin, about the same.
Jasper, ???, single (no comments)


I'm sure I've forgotten some. Even I didnt last out. Whats there to be said?

And no, I'm not lonely, I'm enjoying singlehood, and laughing at those who say their in love right now.

World Aids Day

If you got $38...

Go scare yourself. Get an aids test done.

Exciting isnt it. You know what you have done before..

What if I didnt..But it turned out positive..


Try it today at your nearest GPs, Polyclinics and hospitals.