Friday, June 08, 2007

Yes. I know what to blog about this friday night.

Tomorrow is 9 of June 2007. 9 months ago I would have been looking forward to this day. 9 Days ago it dawned to me the date was coming closer. 9 hours later will be the start of the preparation.

It is the 65th batch of officer cadets commissioning parade.

I feel a sense of emptiness.

Awhile back I'll be bitching about it, saying how good it is to escape all this. Little did I know it would have such a big impact on me. I cant seem to do anything now. Commissioning parade was bugging me.


The applause of the spectators when the cadets march in. They laugh when the cadets sang their school song.
They cheered as top cadets recieve their swords of honour. A deafening roar rocked through the grounds when cadets pleged their allegiance to the president and the republic.


"Ladies and gentlemen, I am proud to present, the Officers of the republic!"


It will forever be eitched in my heart. It was that moment, when cadets becomes 2nd Lieutanants. It was an outworldly experience. Even though I was just an usher, I could feel the passion and pride surging forth from them. It just made it look all so worth it.

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I tried talking to ivy yesterday. No she didnt understood me. She just asked me why did I quit in the first place.

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Pride, Honour, Glory, Duty, Country, Brotherhood.

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I never talked to anyone since. I am not a officer cadet anymore.

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

the very truth is or rather say, the fact is. noone gives a bloody damn about what you were during your NS. and the even more hurtful truth, I have seen more fools who were officers.

take your pick. sulk on the silly 2 years for your pride or look forward to the end of this 24 mths of nonsense.

then again since when do you need such comments.

pshing said...

Why must you let others to give you the 'pride'?
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Pride is associate with self-confident. Trust yourself, believe in your ability, follow what your heart tells you to do. If you can do all those, pride will always in your heart.

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Out of Pride, Honour, Glory, Duty, Country, Brotherhood...
I only believe in Pride, Duty, and Brotherhood. They can also translate to Confident, Responsibility, and Relationship (macro relationship, inclusive of family, friendship, etc.) Our happiness is dependent on those elements.

Honour and Glory are feeling which are implemented by others, what are the use of it? Making you feel big??

Country. Er erm... personally i don't have much to say about it...

That's all i have to say.

Anonymous said...

It's ok to take self-pity sometimes because you feel that others have something you don't. I'm, more often than not, guilty for doing that too.

But you need to pick yourself up after that. I believe that sympathy is not found on others. You need to do it yourself.

Well, at least you stepped into OCS. I didn't even make the cut for SISPEC =)